As usually happens with trips like this, but probably more so in my case since I have a natural tendancy to overanalize... anxieties tend to arise. Thus was my situation much of today. I got really caught up in some worries about the trip and how I would face certain things. It was really cool because it only took a few simple words from a very good friend to simply sink in just a half hour later to help vanquish those squeamish feelings. She simply told me that God had a plan and that whatever His plan was, was awesome... I knew of course, but sometimes it just takes hearing it again... Later I just realized just how silly I was to be anxious. I know so well just how good God is, all the things He has done, all the things He can do. It was so funny because I would argue that I liked where I was I liked the way things were (argue with God)... and He just reminded me through those words that what He has in store is just so much better... I may have been content, but He doesn't want me to be; He wants to open my eyes to the things that He wants to do, He wants me to step out of what is comfortable for me and trust Him imlicitly. He wants to do more for me than I would ever ask Him to do... and not just for me, but as a testimony to who He is... and how can anybody not want that? Anyway, I then realized that not trusting God at that point... was a very silly thing. I am more than excited to see what He has in store and I fully want to walk down with an open heart and open ears that are constantly willing to do what He asks and go where He wants.
On a different note.... I have been.... the BIGGEST scatter brain these past couple days, saying the stupidest, most embarrassing things... I've been the worst driver, I hit a post TWICE today! That was just not ok... I don't get it but I feel like all of a sudden my head has been screwed on the wrong way and I havn't been able to think straight since. I don't know what it is or when this all started but I don't like it. Today was the most embarrassing day I've had in a long time.
Anyway, I can't wait for this weekend!!
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