If only I could fully put into the words the goodness of the God that I serve and even just a small piece of the wonderful things He's done for me, in me, through me. Amazing.
I do not have to time to go into detail at the moment... but from my March 14th entry... so much has happened, so much has changed. My life seems as if it is going by years now on a day to day basis. I am a new person every month, every week, every day. The learning and the lessons have slowed down from when I first got home from the Bahams as I've slid into a daily life... but I still remember those day to days where God would take my heart in giant leaps forward and speak innumerable things to me daily. I cannot even believe the difference in my character now from even 2 months ago let alone 3, 4 or even the 7 months ago that the Bahamas was. Wow. There are moments where I compare the way I think, react, feel about certain things in comparison to how I would've felt a time ago and it blows my mind. The freedom that God has put in me is incredible.
Needless to say there is nothing holding me back from going now. The world, and everything in it is under my feet as the Word says... with Christ in me, who or what can stop me? There are no questions left, nothing in my heart that I need to worry about... nothing that I'm scared to be running from as I go. No I am fully confident that God is even now finishing up every bit of work He's intended to finish up before I go and He's not even done yet! How amazing of a God we serve. This whole time I knew He had it in His control, and I trusted Him through every bit... but trusting while still in bondage versus trusting after a great victory has been won are two totally different things... especially remembering the bondage and realizing the difference. The battle was immense but I am fighting on the side that has won and who will always win the victory!
I don't have time to go into detail which disappoints me because there is so much to say, so many testimonies to give! God is so good! But I have a lot to say about the beginning of this next part of my life and I want to be able to get started on it. My personality holds me to this strange quirk that I cannot start my next blog until I finish this one... which is why I'm giving a short summary of my final thoughts of the occurances of the past half year of my life that quite honestly feels like 10. Perhaps as I discuss plans and the things on my heart for this next trip I will also find time to reflect on the past and on this blog but if not... just know that yet again, God has conquered. In so many ways, these last 6-7 months have been the conclusion of a work that has taken 6-7 years to accomplish and is what has prepared me for this entirely new chapter. I am starting over, and in a place completely devoid of everything I've ever known. If it weren't for who God's made me, for the family He's given me, the friends I've had, the things I've experiences, the ways I've been hurt, the things I've learned or the ways He's changed me... there is no way on heaven or on earth that I would in any way be ready to go right now. I have absolutely no reservations, no fear, nothing holding me back, only a God before me who has my life in the palm of His hands... a God before me who has all the world in the palm of His hands, who has made me, who loves me... what on earth do I have to worry about?!
I am once again in a place of such freedom, such confidence, a place even stronger than before. What happened the last time I was in this place? I got thrown into the fire, into the Bahamas, where I experienced things that threw my world into chaos.... so what have I to expect this time? Maybe something similar? Maybe something worse? Either way I go into it this time even stronger than before, and with a stronger understanding of not only the God who is next to me, but IN me... LIVING in me! The authority that He's given me, the fact that He loves me and only ever wants to bless me... I am not afraid! Praise God! I will praise Him and praise Him always, regardless of where I am or what is happening because His ways are always higher! Always better! I love Him with all my heart and I can't wait to see what He has in store! Thank you for reading! Thank you for praying! I'm sorry I never set enough time aside to really go into the things that God has been doing and speaking... I kind of give that priority to my journal... maybe I'll do a better job of it in my next blog :)
Thanks again!
Corinna
